Do you believe in light?#
My adorable little niece asked me during dinner last night, "Uncle, do you like Ultraman? Here, take this."
As she handed me a pià ji, it seems that in my niece's world, boys and Ultraman can be equated.
I realized that pià ji might be a dialect from Northeast China when I couldn't figure out the word. I looked it up online and it turns out it is. Interestingly, some people say that it is the transliteration of Menko (めんこ，"face" in Japanese). I looked it up on Wikipedia and found that Menko is a popular card game in Japan since the Edo period. The gameplay of pià ji is similar, so it may be a game culture spread during the Japanese colonial period.
I was obsessed with collecting these game cards in my childhood, perhaps similar to how anime fans collect figurines now. It seems that even children understand life. The carefree nature of childhood may be the most straightforward interpretation of a child's love for life.
When I was a child, I used to laugh a lot, and often very loudly. In class, the teacher would often use jokes to lighten the atmosphere, and I would easily get caught up in the laughter. I would often need someone to remind me, "Stop laughing" or "What are you laughing at..." But since I entered university, there have been fewer and fewer things that can make me laugh, and almost nothing that can make me particularly happy. Life seems to have become mundane, perhaps this is the regret of adulthood...
To resist the increasingly numbness of life, I have tried many things: taking photos in my free time, reading books, meeting old friends, etc., trying to make life more colorful. But I know that the true face of life is not like this. Life is the exploration of the mystery of life for each individual. It has the ability to bring endless joy to everyone, and it is not about just getting by. Although I have lost the innocence of childhood, everyone in this society can have laughter from the heart. This is my expectation for life, in other words, I believe in light.
Old friends#
Last night, I received shocking news. My best friend has a boyfriend! How wonderful... I sincerely hope that she can find her own happiness!!!⭐
I used to think that the term "boyfriend" had nothing to do with her, hhh (forgive me...
Maybe it was the suddenness of the news, my brain couldn't process it. Almost immediately, I thought of a question that I had never considered before: Will my relationship with her affect her relationship with her boyfriend? Actually, thinking like this is wrong. It is a thought of lack of confidence and a lack of trust in our friendship over the years.
Upon hearing the news of a friend's relationship, I also wondered when my own love would come. I also want a sweet romance... But before entering into a relationship, we must first ask ourselves, why do we want to be in a relationship? It may be because we long for the unknown curiosity (or the happiness of the present senses), we tend to approach a state of acquisition. This state of approaching acquisition is love. But being in a relationship requires courage. Although it originates from our expectations and yearnings for life, it is essentially a breakthrough in our original state of life. In summary, love is a brave attempt to pursue the unknown.
Finally, I want to share a song by Eason. May you find your own happiness.
Today Only Do One Thing
I realized that there is always too little space in this world
So I spend a day controlling all my time
I realized that there is always too much calculation in this world
So I spend a day contemplating all the reasons
Disappearing too quickly, catching too little
So I spend a day feeling that everything is love
In this vast sea of people
There are so many drifting and drowning
Everyone is searching for love
There are so many struggles and competitions
The more I feel that there is only a little unchanging love left
Slowly cooperating to create new poetry
Quietly napping together in bed
Rediscovering the weariness and dearness that comes with time
With various disasters and unexpected events
Therefore, I will strive to continue being able to love
Slowly moving towards tomorrow
Quietly reminiscing about yesterday
Deciding again that today I will only believe in love
Let the wrinkles fade away, let youth return
Therefore, I like spending a day feeling that everything is love
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I realized that there is always too little depth in this world
So I spend a day changing all my habits
I realized that there are always too many mysteries in this world
So I spend a day having all the luck
Disappearing too quickly, catching too little
So I spend a day feeling that everything is love
In this vast sea of people
There are so many drifting and concealing
Everyone is searching for love
There are so many struggles and competitions
The more I feel that there is only a little unchanging love left
Slowly singing karaoke together
Quietly playing games online
Rediscovering the weariness and dearness that comes with time
With various disasters and unexpected events
Therefore, I will strive to continue being able to love
Slowly moving towards tomorrow
Quietly reminiscing about yesterday
Deciding again that today I will only believe in love
Let the wrinkles fade away, let youth return
Therefore, I like spending a day feeling that everything is love
Woo yeah, I like spending a day feeling that everything is love with you